Tattoo Tuesday

Serenity Now!  It's going to take a lot of Bikram Yoga to get me through this week I think...and it's only 1.5 days of work.  Douche owner is in full throttle now that good owner is out of the country for the week visiting family.  It's like he's fed extra power trips in the morning when he knows he's the only owner on site.  It's about all I can take.  Don't tell me I did your job wrong considering I was never trained, nor was I asked to take on your responsibilities when you disappeared on "medical" leave while your lawyers were finding ways to keep you around...and especially don't nit pick on my work when you're in the office now and I'm still doing your job and not getting paid to do it.

I recognize that I can never just sit and wait for opportunity to knock...but I would be thrilled to at least hear its footsteps approaching my door!  Please!

So burnt on the bullshit...it's beyond words.  I am throwing out my resume to the opportunities that I find...and hoping something sticks soon.  I have one potential bright spot, but not sure how their timing is on bringing someone on board.  They at least have my info and have let me know I will hear from them soon...you just never know what their "soon" is.  I was told three years ago that douche owner would be leaving "soon" and everything would be great...three years and counting is NOT SOON enough for me.  Clearly...I'm using all caps here people...I need a drink.

Thankfully days like this end and I can come home to my zen space, walk my boys in the drizzle and dusky fog, and clear my head.  I just have to stay focused and realize that while I have put myself completely into my position, with the clear plan to continue to build the business and see it grow into what it can truly be...that I may need to just take it as a lesson and move on.  As frustrating as that is for me.  Especially considering all of my staff have put in just as much heart and soul and will clearly be moving on if things don't change.  It's even more frustrating considering how well things work and how great we all get things done when wackadoo owner is gone..like when a black cloud lifts and things just roll along so well.

Ok, I'm rambling.  Just trying to get it out so I don't carry it with me.  I want to enjoy the short week and get into the long weekend in a good place.  I have so much to be thankful for during this season and I really am focused on keeping those things in my mind and heart and hoping that the positive energy moves into my work sector.  And I can't wait for stuffing and pie!!!  Bring it!

Cheerio - Rin

MANdatory Monday

Well...it's been a whirlwind few days.  Took a few half days last week just to give myself a  breather.  I have so many vacation days and sick hours I figured it was wise to start using them up.  If I end up busting out of my current gig, I know those sick hours will be eaten up by ahole owner in a heartbeat.  Still frustrated that my good boss won't stand up for me and give me the third quarter bonus I earned.  I'm pretty sure it's illegal to hold a bonus back considering the guy that is holding it back is the guy I testified against in court in August...and the guy still claiming to be part owner and do whatever destruction to the business as he can before the final court date to get him out.  There's a good chance I won't be there to see that day...and i'm hoping that my staff sticks with it long enough for me to be the first ball to start rolling away.  I don't want to to start hiring people in when I'm planning on busting out.  Just feels weird interviewing people and selling the place at such a f-ed up time in the business.

Anywho...Mr. is wonderful and has been so helpful in keeping my mind from spinning out of control with the work bullshit.  We had a great date day last Thursday and did the zoo...with a behind the scenes elephant experience where we got up close and personal with them.  Watched their bathes and training sessions, and got to give one a good pet too.  We went super early so it was stunningly quiet and we could just wonder the zoo with no screaming children and really see the animals.  The apes and orangutans were amazing.  They were feeding their breakfasts and so they were really active and since we were the only ones in the entire building other than the keepers, it was amazeballs.  The apes were interacting with us just sitting watching them. While I do feel it's sad that they have to live in captivity, I am grateful they do not have to struggle with their habitats being burned and destroyed.  It's a weird mess we've made of things for sure.

Last evening we wrapped up the weekend by hitting up a Bikram class.  Mr. and I oddly used to go to the same studio a little over a year ago, but never ran into each other.  Then he started at a new studio that opened closer to his house and I moved on and joined the gym.  Luckily we now have that to share and it's so much better walking out and coming home with company to share the yoga coma with.  He of course is a master and was at one point thinking of doing the competitions for bikram and almost at the teacher level...I'm bendy, but i certainly have my limits as to how many classes I could take in a week...and I certainly wouldn't do two in a row like he does...that's like burning 3000 calories in 3 hours.  Cri-zazy-ness.

So, it's Monday...and thankfully i work 2.5 days this week.  Going to do Thanksgiving breakfast with Mr's family and then swing by our place to pick up the dogs and head up to my parents house for an evening meal.  I haven't seen my aunts in a bit and it'll be nice to just catch up with the fam.  My rents are doing a yard sale on black friday...as a last ditch effort to thin out the goods before they put their house on the market and move to the beach full time.  I have no intentions of working a yard sale...so i'll be spinning back home for sure.

Ok, peace and love.  Oh, duh...they sent a tech guy to my house..replaced my hard drive...and so I'm up and running.  Of course...my entire photo archive was lost...so bear with my pics for a bit until I have time to build up a new collection.

- Rin

Tattoo Tuesday

So, the official word from Dell Tech Support...my laptop needs a new hard drive.  I was unable to recover any of my documents or my entire archive of photos.  Gah!  I have some documents on a back-up with the ex, and I'm thinking he may want to see the dogs in exchange for the files...but I haven't asked yet.  I was hoping to find them so I didn't have to go there.  Of course, he could put them on a cd and just send them to me, but he hasn't offered.  But, the good news...my warranty expired in ten days.  If I had been busy with work or just not using my laptop that day...and not up on the fact that my warranty was expiring, it could have been a much worse situation.  The thing is only a year old...so, it would have been a very expensive paperweight! 

Anywho, I'm resolved to the fact that what's lost is just info that had no value and that what was valuable enough, I will remember, and recreate.  As for the photos...I will just have to start a new archive for the blog...which just means I have an excuse to peak around and enjoy the finds.  This time around I'm going to do a much more thorough job organizing them though.  It'll make keeping up with things on here much more efficient.  So, I need to get out the door.  Boys are walked and fed...Mr. is off to his first day at the new gig...and I am caffeinated.  Thanks for sticking up with me!  I have some fun plans in the works...and a new blog with Mr. coming together.  Keep an eye out for me!  It's all around the corner, I just have to keep moving to figure out which fucking corner. 

Booyah! - Rin